Hopeless.

I wish I could just go up to someone, and tell them how I feel. About everything. I don’t...

Wed, 22 May 2013 12:46:26 -0500

I wish I could just go up to someone, and tell them how I feel. About everything. I don’t really talk about my feelings anymore? They’ve been building and building, and I’m going to explode.

I want to tell someone about my mom, and how fucked up I am because of her.

I want to tell someone about my dad, and how I love him so much, but I can’t take care of him anymore.

I want to tell someone how much it kills me that he is so broken and I don’t know what to do.

I want to tell someone that my dad told me he can’t stand me because I remind him of mom, and how crippling that is to my entire being.

I want to tell someone how much I hate myself for that.

I want to tell someone how sad it makes me that I will never love myself because I look just like my mother, and everything about her is awful.

I want to tell someone that I can’t have kids, and I cry about it every day.

I want to tell someone that I don’t believe in god anymore because of it.

I want to tell someone how much my heart hurts because the boy I love will never love me.

I want to tell someone about Steven, and how he is perfect. How he is the most amazing man, but how sad it makes me that he also will never love me the way someone loves someone enough to marry them.

I want to tell someone about this silly girl that I like. I haven’t liked a girl in a long time. And I will never let myself date a girl. One, because girls are crazy. But most importantly, two, because it would break my dad’s heart.

I want to tell someone how guilty I feel for that. She likes me too. A whole lot. She broke up with her girlfriend, kinda for me. And I just won’t give her what she deserves because I want my dad to be happy before anyone.

I want to tell someone how tired I am because I work all the time.

And I want to tell someone that I’m losing myself. I thought when you were 20, you started to “find” yourself.

I want to tell someone how frustrated I am that I have just gotten more lost.

I want to tell someone that I’m a bad friend. I haven’t seen some of the people that I would like. Sure, scheduling is a big deal. But I feel terrible for it being so long since I’ve seen some of the people I love the most.

I want to tell someone that I don’t know how to cope with anything.

I want to tell someone that I am falling apart.

But my walls are too high, and I’ll keep this here. When people might ask about it, I’ll probably shut down. Maybe I will talk a little. But I probably won’t say what I’m really feeling, because I don’t know how to do that anymore.

Sorry for the redundancy.

biodrops: Fungos ou Cheetos? Arachnopeziza aurelia by shimie on...

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:03:02 -0500

biodrops:

Fungos ou Cheetos?

Arachnopeziza aurelia by shimie on Flickr.

Photo

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:02:57 -0500

C H A O S

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:02:50 -0500

C H A O S

side effects of being friends with me include gaining extensive knowledge of tv shows you dont...

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:02:22 -0500

side effects of being friends with me include gaining extensive knowledge of tv shows you dont watch or care about

Life is one fucking beauty contest after...

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:02:16 -0500

Life is one fucking beauty contest after another.

"Bitches they come, they go."

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:02:11 -0500

“Bitches they come, they go.”

- Eminem, Superman (via hay-girl-hay-lesbifriends)

hiddles-batched: Robert Downey Jr. is attending a celebrity costume party. A reporter asks him,...

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:02:05 -0500

hiddles-batched:

Robert Downey Jr. is attending a celebrity costume party. A reporter asks him, “where is your costume, Robert Downey Jr.?”

RDJ laughs. “I’m Tony Stark.”

He wins all the awards. You simply can’t tell the difference.

Photo

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:02:01 -0500

earthlynation: Lion and a Broken Printer. Photo by foxsvir

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:01:54 -0500

earthlynation:

Lion and a Broken Printer. Photo by foxsvir

thc-abuse: FUCKING LOVE FRENCH FRIES

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:01:50 -0500

thc-abuse:

FUCKING LOVE FRENCH FRIES

lulz-time: anchored-until-forever: Disney princesses at their...

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:01:25 -0500

lulz-time:

anchored-until-forever:

Disney princesses at their finest.

My lovely followers, please follow this blog immediately!

Photo

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:01:17 -0500

pornographicthursday: burgrs: i thought i left my ipod in the theater so we went back to look for...

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:01:11 -0500

pornographicthursday:

burgrs:

i thought i left my ipod in the theater so we went back to look for it and i couldn’t see so i turned on my ipod to give me some light so i could find my ipod do u see where this is going because i did not

aw lucky i wish i had two ipods

teamcoco: From yesterday’s monologue. #conan (at Warner Bros...

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:01:02 -0500

teamcoco:

From yesterday’s monologue. #conan (at Warner Bros Stage 15)

lorathevamps: estateofcait: stepoffthemap: I just love how...

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:00:55 -0500

lorathevamps:

estateofcait:

stepoffthemap:

I just love how they both look at each other before dancing!

She’s totally like, “oooh girl this my jam” and her twin is like “yea girl mine too!”

Awww

wellhellotello: fckingmajeliblood: so-much-hilarity: I...

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:00:49 -0500

wellhellotello:

fckingmajeliblood:

so-much-hilarity:

I keep having to remind myself that it’s the lionesses that do the hunting and killing and get their faces soaked in blood I mean is there a more badass animal

the king of the jungle

in the second it’s like ‘maybe if I look away she’ll stop yelling at me’

HBP: How did Harry not realize the hand writing in the Half-blood Prince's potion book was the same as the hand writing he had spent 5 years reading off a black board?

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:00:27 -0500

catrianasommers:

#because Harry’s a stupid bitch that’s why

#For the main character of such a good book series #He really is a dumbshit #Ooh what is this long skinny broomstick shaped package? #ITS A BROOMSTICK NO WAY

#Slytherin house is a snake #heir of slytherin can talk to snakes #HMM I WONDER WHAT’S IN THE FUCKING CHAMBER OF SECRETS #MAYBE IT’S A FUCKING CHIHUAHUA #see this is why he’s not in ravenclaw

LOVE THIS

It got better.

Tupac was the sweetest, most gentle person. You’ll never...

Mon, 13 May 2013 23:59:48 -0500

Tupac was the sweetest, most gentle person. You’ll never believe what music he wanted to listen to during the shoot: Counting Crows. I know how long the shoot was, because we listened to it three times! I told some of my son’s friends - and they of course absolutely deified Tupac - and I said what music he wanted to listen to, and they were like, “oooooh.”

— Dan Winters, photographer, on his 1994 photoshoot with Tupac Shakur.

thewinterborn: all hail!

Mon, 13 May 2013 23:59:42 -0500

thewinterborn:

all hail!